You know how you can make one decision that can impact every aspect of your life (and your family’s) for years to come?
Six weeks ago I made one of them.
And it wasn’t an easy one.
I decided to stop refinishing.
The first two weeks, I second guessed myself everyday. Told myself that I could make it work.
But I constantly reminded myself of the peace I felt as I first expressed my feelings to Zac and the prompting that started the conversation where I told him I felt like I should be done.
I’m finally feeling brave enough to give up something that brings me a lot of satisfaction and pride. And something that has been part of my everyday life for three and a half years.
Partly for the five little people in my life, but mostly for me. I need to slow down, soak in all that’s around me and enjoy life more.
Stop seeing each day as a check list of things that need to be done.
I tell you, after the first couple weeks of hesitation, I realized this is absolutely the right decision.
I feel happy. I feel peace. And most importantly I’m enjoying life and time with my family more.
I will miss painting. I will miss the people I meet and get to connect with because of it. I will miss this blog and the wonderful people I’ve had the chance to interact with through it.
But I have one shot at this mom thing and I want to get it right. And for me that means slowing down and giving my time to the things and people that matter most.